Jason::Adams

Full Moon/ Eclipse today!  I’ve always wanted to check out this Full Moon party I hear so much about.  So after hearing about the Drum Circle tonight, and wanting to meet some of the new pledges, I decided to kill a couple birds with one stone.

I went down to the Pledge Bonfire, met some cool pledges….  then rocked over to Jacquelyns house to pick her up … and then over to Blacks Beach for the Moon Drum Circle .

Probably the best moments I had with Jacquelyn were in her house, just chilling watching TV.  Its pretty sad but the times I like the most with Jacquelyn is when we aren’t trying to do something.  Im pretty sure Im going to tell her that I wont be hanging out with her with intention to have a crazy/good time.  She is very much stuck in her pessimistic, negative, reality.  It sucks because I think she deserves more and needs to believe that the world has more to offer her.  She feels like shes the victim, while I feel she could be the champ.  Considering how much I value positivity in my life, I don’t think Jacquelyn and I could ever work out.  I know I could really help her if she wanted, and probably change her life forever.  But aren’t I getting sick of this?  I’ve pretty much made the rule that i will only help people that want or ask for the help.  When I do help people, I push them, they alwyas thank me after.  But the “DURING” time is horrible.  They think Im sending negative energy their way, or putting pressure on them, they arent thinking for the greater good, what my purpose would be.

I don’t know, who will see what happens with Jacquelyn, I know for sure that if we hang out again Im gonna make sure were just having a movie night or something.  Because  I need someone that makes their own party, that makes their own good time, that creates the awesome things they want in their life.  Besides if my favorite times with her are when we are just chillin? Then I should just chill with her.

So ya, that was basically me venting my frustrations of the Drum Circle, which I feel could have been an AMAZING time.  It was the most surreal vibe ever! It felt like it was out of a movie.  After driving around trying to find this magical “gate” that leads down to this secluded beach, I finally find it, and the hordes of people going down.  You have to  traverse down this massive cliff, to try and get to the secluded beach below.  Its been somewhat paved, and made easier to get down…. but everyone is still very cautious.  It was really cool looking down the cliff and seeing lines of people climbing down the cliff to get to the Drum Circle.  After making it all the way down , it was an amazing sight.  There was hundreds of people all dancing everywhere on the beach, there was several people twirling fire, and the deafening echoes of the massive drum circle playing near the main bonfire.  I couldn’t help but feel tribal and united at that moment.  Everyone at the Drum Circle knows and cherishes that feeling, and that feeling seems to unite everyone there.  People walk up to you to talk, everyone is friendly with each other, passing drugs, all posssesions , around like everything is community property.  People leaving their drums in the sand, having faith in good intentions.  Jacquelyn didnt seem to really get into the place, she had already made up her mind that it would only be mediocre.  I thought the place was amazing, and with a sidekick ready to dance, let go, and have an amazing time… we could have made a really memorable night.  Jacquelyn let the cold get to her, much like the rain did outside of Stingaree, so I dont think she let herself enjoy it much.  Besides meeting the Shaman from South America, and getting offered some form of DMT in tea form, really didnt do much but observe and listen. A random guy and girl walked up to us saying “heres some new people we can meet”, he was probably intoxicated, but because he came off like it wasnt a big deal, it wasnt a big deal to us.  Found out they were relatively young a 19yr old named Russel and some girl from Mission bay Highschool named Ananendale or some crazy name.  She was only 17.  The drumcircle was definately a very DIVERSE event.  Old People, Young People, Kids, Friends, Enemies, all dancing having a good time to the drums.  I can’t wait for the next full moon so I can bring along a drum and just jam all night.

 

Every single relationship you have is a reflection of how you feel inside about you. You are a magnet attracting to you all things, via the signal you are emitting through your thoughts and feelings. Every relationship you have and every interaction with every person, is a reflection of your own thoughts and feelings in that very moment. Know that you are worthy and deserving of anything and everything you could possibly want in your life. Focus on the wonderful things in every person. Look for only those things.  Do not blame or criticize anybody, ever.  Set an intention that you are going to see the best in everything and everyone. Make your happiness the number one thing in your life.  Free yourself of the responsibility of trying to make other people happy. 
I have alot of work to do.

I was just thinking about how bullshit some peoples thought are on Sex.  Girls call other girls “Sluts” for being promiscuous. They claim that pornography is degrading. Nudity is degrading, obscene, etc.  Who the hell are these people that think they have the right to judge sex? Do they own sex, did they create sex? Who are they to defy nature and the will of our humanity? Nature tells me to bone. I bone. Am I going to believe Sally Sue, or that forever wise Mother Nature. Sex isn’t bad, it isnt obscene, its not grotesque, and no one is certainly any less for submitting to their urges. Rather than hide our urges, why not worship, revere, make it spiritual and emotional like it should be. We’ve been having sex for millions of years, whos to say that we should be ashamed of it now?