Wrote during class
Thursday, March 30th, 2006I’m sitting in a massive room, tons of students each trying to distract themselves from paying attention to the teacher babel on about countries and currencies, and this and that. International Finance is fascinating, but i need some visual aid dammit. I’m not the kind of guy that will learn anything in a huge lecture hall with a teacher talking. If your just going to talk, record that shit at night and send it to my email. Don’t waste my time, I want to be able to fast forward through the fluff.
Now lets go backwards… before this I was running around campus, finding a special “environment” that evoked some emotions or thought within me. I became a king, and had a harem of women trying to keep my attention. Before that? I was in Improv Acting Class. This class is slowly becoming one of my favorite classes, ever. For anyone that doesn’t know, to break up my monotomous schedule and in a constant effort to consistantly improve myself, and break my comfort boundaries, I decided to sign up for a Improv Acting class. I started out not knowing what to expect, I introduced myself but it seemed that everyone already knew each other. The acting/theatre/direction majors at San Diego State University have one of the tightest families/cliques/groups around. They all hang out at “the benches” and socialize, often being mistaken for wierd ass people. What really happens is that unique bonds are made with the people in their classes. To give you an example of what my class is like: Â
    One of the first classes we were told we would learn about your body, taking up space, sensuality, stuff like that. Essentially this excercise was to get everyone in the group trusting each other, to destroy sexual tension. We started off making love to the floor, yes you heard me right, imagine 20-30 Random individuals humping a wooden, dirty floor. Man I did that floor good. Next we did several excercises that essentially seemed like lapdances. We gave each other massages without using our hands, i was instructed to touch/roll my head on EVERY part of a girls body. “In improv we don’t have sexual tension, we don’t care about little things like that, we have a stronger bond.” Hell ya im getting a lapdance in class! Essentially we learned alot about our bodies, and learned to trust each other. The biggest trust excercise was having small groups lift each person in the room, up into the air, hovering, parallel to the ground. You can imagine how scared I was, being the big guy that I was, that I’d be crushing my new friends. But much to my surprise, they lifted me straight into the air, and didnt even seem to have any problems! (Hong grabbed my ass, that was fun.) And from then a bond started forming.
 Lets come back to today, where we did environmental excercises where we had to create a scene out of an environment. We found a couple seats, in a pedastal format, and instantly we had ideas. I was the only man in our group, so I became the king. I had a harem of women that came to entertain me at the snap of a finger. We decided to utilize a girl named “bree’s” energy, and break the plane by having her do random funny things. She was a ditzy harem girl that didn’t quite understand what was going on. I don’t think im going to be able to explain it all to you, but essentially I had alot of fun. I have to admit that in the beggining I thought all of the people in the room were probably big dorks! (Even though I brought my friend Julia in the class, and my lover Hong was in it as well.) But after getting to know them, they are very personable, entertaining, interesting people. I mean they’re aspiring actors, I guess its hard to expect any less. I am going to digress, essentially I love this class! and I love the people in it.Â
What was interesting is that Julia and Hong said today that ” You are mr. finance, you are the finance major, yet you are the most actor out of any of us. I always look at you and see what you do, and realize you love this, and that your better at improv than any of the rest of us, yet your the finance major.” Which brought me to think about the crayzness that is life. How a slight hobby can really change your life. I am seriously enjoying pushing my comfort boundaries, and I enjoy being given the opportunity to convey my personality in anything I do. Can I really convey my personality, in Finance work? Why did I really get into Finance? Well, I read a book “Rich Dad Poor Dad” and in it, it said Finance/Cashflows is the most important part of being successful. So i made my major finance, and I barely pay attention to any of my classes! Who knows where my path is going, but I do love socializing, and I love people, and I love being outside (specifically the fresh air near the beach)! What am i doing sitting on my computer every day, why am I taking a office job? Im contradicting everything about myself! Don’t worry Mom and Pops im not going to quit my finance degree, and go into acting. But still, it makes me think. Personally I don’t think Im that good at improv, I havent learned how to become a character. I analyze everything too much, and I want everything I say to make sense, when really I just need to become a character. I need to destroy my inhibitions. I digress again!Â
So lets go backwards some more…. I was sitting in improv class, before that I was sitting In economics class, in accounting class… all the while reading a book I brought rather than paying attention to any of my classes. (Much like im doing right now, I hear the teacher talking, shouldn’t I be paying attention? Hmm Amits nodding off in the corner, so if hes not gonna pay attention neither am I) Before class, I was getting ready for class, surprisingly very happy to be up. Ive been over energetic, and very happy lately, I think in part because I got a job that I enjoy. And the other part because of my outstanding perspective on life. Before getting ready, I was sleeping. Before sleeping I was sitting in my bed, stoned, watching Winamp Visuals listenting to some progressive music, wondering when the people out in the living room are going to shut up so I can go to sleep. Before that I was on the phone with Tran, a girl from class that Imet, who calls me her husband, because i was roleplaying with her. Shes a cute short asian girl, with a great rack, and a fun personality! Obviously I don’t care much about her looks, because alot of my old friends, have known me to toss the hot girls, and go for the ugly one. Really living in san diego, should show men that we aren’t coming from a view of scarcity. Beauty is common! San diego has beautiful women everywhere, you go up to LA and its even better (worse?), I mean Hollywood come on! Whats really special (note PU) is a certain ENERGY, A VIBE, PERsPEcTIVE ON LIFE, I want someone fun, someone who chooses their destiny and takes control of their lives. I digress! So i was talking to Tran, about meeting up for Breakfast because we had our first class of the day cancelled! Tran brought up the excellent point that going to breakfast, would defeat the whole pleasure/purpose of having class cancelled! Getting to sleep in! I agreed with her point, and flirted with her for several minutes after. Shes a fun girl! Before that I was at work, happy to be making money, writing tons of business letters, signing my name “Jason K Adams, Law Clerk”.
So all In all. Im crazy. I work at a law firm now. And im damn happy.
_jason
P.S. another thing I was thinking about, that I might want to think about later, analyze etc. Is just the observation of when “Bree” was in the room, being weird with me. On the surface level she was just being weird, being energetic. On the underground, it was like a fight between frames. She came in crazy, i was slow, and normal. My normal frame started trying to throw in Silly things to get her going, and she slowly started to raise my energy level. Thats when she raises her level, and goes above and beyond testing my lower energy level frame again, shes practically humping me in class, and Im trying to keep up, to take over her energy level. I wanted to be the fun, crazy one. Yet she was being crazy, she was being energetic, she was being fun, and I was the guy she was attacking. Their was a wierd connection with body language jokes, going for a handshake, thinking a hug, go forward, go back. All really weird, its just interesting to think about, How can I develop that kind of attitude, the crazyness? I know I do it at times, but how do I harness, how dO I make it a controlled part of my personality? I need to reflect during one of the times im going crazy, and see what put me in the state, why im acting like I am, how, etc.
Just thinking…
P.S.2 … Bree is cute… so is Elise… both have pretty faces, amazing smiles, interesting unique facial gestures. I think that defines what I see as attractive… Not really the body, but the facial expressions, the smile… which all can tell you something about a persons attitude, how fun they are, the energy I mentioned earlier… Way too much reflection. I digress, and finally end this blog post. I bet no one will read this but me!
